Wednesday, October 27, 2004

i'm so pissed off now... i'm stuck at home with a searing pain in my stomach.. of all days why does it have to be today!!! this super sucks.. this morning when i woke up, i got this really really bad tummy ache so i went to the toilet and i think i sat there for like 15 mins but nothing came out and my tummy really hurt then i puked but then only like bile came out... i really pray that it's getting better soon... i wanted to see a doctor but then i decided not too.. i have a phobia for doctors la huh... anyway my mommie called mrs chin to tell her that i wasn't coming to school today and that freak face wasn't too happy that i'll be giving a parent's letter.. gosh i hate that woman... anyway MY MOMMIE KNOWS THAT I DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL SO WHAT CAN YOU DO TO ME?? my stomach better be ok by tonight.. at least i'm able to sleep a little longer today..
it's so sad schools ending in like 2 days... i can't believe the whole school year just passed by this quick huh... and soon it'll be christmas and then in a twinkling of an eye it's time for us to take our A's... and then before we know it we'll be married with kids and then we are lying on our death bed breathing in our last breath.. life sure is short don't you think.. so i think my resolution for next year would be to live my life to the fullest and i know it's cliche but seriously just think about it.. if you just float around aimlessly everyday, when you're on your death bed what can you say that you have accomplished in this life?? and plus we can never ever go back to the past.. i'm not saying it's not good to dwindle in the past but you gotta face up to reality ya know.. enough with all the "i wish that i'd done this differently.." or "i regretted doing this.." or "if only i'd did that.." And we gotta learn how to take risks in life.. if you've never tried anything how would you know it's bad or good?? But if you have taken them at least you know that you have tried.. you could be missing out on something big ya know... "IT'S BETTER TO HAVE TRIED AND LOST THEN TO HAVE DONE NOTHING AT ALL"
cheem rite... i think i only get into these moods when i'm either really pissed or really sad and i think in this case i'm really pissed... i feel like just cutting out my stomach... hey stomach you suck la okie... i'm spouting nonsense.. okok i'm soo going to rest