Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Have you ever hated yourself so much you dont even dare look at yourself in the mirror??

i seriously felt like that after playing the match against RJC!! i missed so many balls!! i really dont know what is wrong with me.. felt totally disgusted with myself that i decided to sub myself out before i bring the team further down.. today was just one of the bad days of hockey and i really cant afford to have bad hockey days anymore what with only 1 more game left to play.. i made stupd mistakes like pushing the ball straight to the player and not receiving the ball properly!! i seriously hate myself for that i tell you.. felt like utter shit after the game but i guess it's over and there's no point cryingo ver spilt milk so pick ureself up and look to the next match because nothing can ever get as bad as the match today...sigh i fell down once cos i knocked into the bloody wall called pauline and and again the dumbass sharmaine collided with the brick wall next time where my head nearly cracked open. it surprises me she doesnt even feel anything if it hurt me it should have caused her some pain too right?? but NO a brick wall is a brick wall alright.. i think the only thing that will ever bring her down is a friggin bulldozer made of GOLD because i think if the bulldozer was made of metal it would still be no match for the brick wall!!!
i wish we had more games and i really wish that hockey wouldnt have to end.. i'm so sorry team i really really played like shit!! but i guess whats done is done and we can only look forward to the next game la okie.. and plus we are playing at CCAB where the fengshui is definitely better for all of us..
i know the latest news is that M.I beat NJC 1-0!! which means that we might still have a chance of getting into the semi's.. which is pretty good now.. all S.A has to do is to win or have a draw with M.I. as candypok says.. i'm crossing everything i've got toes, fingers and eyes!! maybe just maybe we may get into the semi's!! i'm really sorry for not playing well at all team, i really am very sorry.. lets play well for the AJC match on thursday then.. i'm sure we can beat them..