Thursday, November 09, 2006

had driving today. i must say i'm improving albeit a bit slow.

Anyway i think my mother is in like a mid life crisis of some sort. we had a long mother to daughter talk last night and for all of those who know me, i'm sad to say not as close to my mother as i would like. anyway she was telling me that she feels as if she has no more zest or zeal for life. sigh what are you supposed to say when your mother comes to you saying such stuff. i'm only 19. she told me that the food that she eats has no more taste and she just goes through themotion of eating. plus my mother thinks that she looks old and she's afraid that she'll start menopause soon. she grumbled to me about having a bout of bad luck cos she can't find any clothes that suit her and her stomach is getting all lumpy and fat. i felt pretty bad cos i was the one who kinda asked my mom how come she was piling on the weight. i'm such a terrible daughter man. i never knew my mother had so much insecurites. i seriously feel absolutely bad. when i was talking to her, i could just see her transforming before my eyes into like me!! seriously i promise you all she was morphing into me. She kept on saying that she's the epitome of fat and i was like no you're not fat la mom. last night i made a resolution, an end of year resolution more like. i promised to treat my mother better and never ever say that she's fat again.

mothers just like daughters need to be encouraged every so often. Because sometimes we forget that our mothers are daughters themselves too.