Monday, November 12, 2007

its raining now. and its usually the weather which gets me in those grim, dreary moods. and during the past few weeks, i've seen more heartaches than i can count. met up with kok and cindy on wed night.

and lets just say i'm disillusioned by love. the extravagant and noble notions of love ain't quite like that for me anymore. and its the first time how i saw someone who carried her heartache in her eyes. i know its stupid but if you saw what i did, i guess you would agree with me too. heavy laden, corpulent and replete. i never thought someone could grief so openly yet so silently you know. you know those scenes on tv where the widowed wife is grieving for her dead husband? yeah, well imagine doing that on the inside. its 10 times worse.

and i have 5 descriptions of love. contrary to all those sappy love shit that we read on valentines day card.
love is ugly
love is gut wrenching
love catches you unaware and rips your heart out
love is indeed blind
and love is selfish

someone once said that true love is a soul's recognition of its counterpart. bah!! thats rubbish i think true love is a soul's recognition to torment and heartache.

moral of the story: do not ever ever ever let your guard down.

anyway guys if ure reading it, i still have like half a pot of red paint sitting in my storeroom.