Sunday, March 23, 2008

so going out with kok, shanna and the rest were as always- fun. kok has a pretty bright future ahead of her. and i'm friggin happy for my munchkin. her starting pay is awesome at 2.2. we're planning to move out tgt :) thats my dream but its going to be her reality. damn. and she's mature beyond her years. hey kok, talking with u made me feel somewhat inspired!! hurhur. some friends are for keeps. i love u

and sadly even though i'm the first to turn 21, i feel oddly young/immature compared with kok especially. considering the fact that i have nothing, an enormous freaking blank when i decide on my supposedly future.

the coward in me is thinking to just marry some rich fart and just dwadle life away. but then, here's where i think i can understand why i'm my mother's daughter. i don't think i'll ever be that person who just sits there and let life just pass her by. people say to live life to its fullest and to grab it by its reins but then the real way of living life is to have a plan and i guess direction. which i don't think i have at this point which saddens me to no count. but i'm just hoping and praying that as i plod on to complete my pathetic degree that i can like newton, get hit by an apple and get insight. yes, thats my futile thinking.

but as for now, i'm going to send my scraggly, lamentable cv to everyone. SPAM is the word.